1:01 AM
Oh that demon within. Can you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is perfect. You drive your ambitions deep within my soul. And there I lay, the monster inside playing around within me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more I try to run from you.
But I will fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this confuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so strong and so tight due to my inability to see that the battle increased your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I moved. But like I claimed before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I will see well now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore regarding you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here deep inside of me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I am finally aware of what you now are and who you turned me into. No, I'm not making an attempt to fool anyone any more by showing them a fake smile on my face. No, I'll just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's take a walk and work this thing out. I would like to hear what you have to say about all those years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you pleased with your achievements? Maybe... I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the birth of a long relationship. It's going to be difficult, but I'm going to start talking with you for the very first time. But now, my life choices are based primarily on light. It's time to begin living my life and make the best choices I am able to. But I know that I must consult with you...oh devil within. You can show me a trail that is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been afraid to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Stupidity. Fear.
So let's take a walk. I want to hear what you have got to say.
But I will fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this confuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so strong and so tight due to my inability to see that the battle increased your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I moved. But like I claimed before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I will see well now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore regarding you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here deep inside of me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I am finally aware of what you now are and who you turned me into. No, I'm not making an attempt to fool anyone any more by showing them a fake smile on my face. No, I'll just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's take a walk and work this thing out. I would like to hear what you have to say about all those years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you pleased with your achievements? Maybe... I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the birth of a long relationship. It's going to be difficult, but I'm going to start talking with you for the very first time. But now, my life choices are based primarily on light. It's time to begin living my life and make the best choices I am able to. But I know that I must consult with you...oh devil within. You can show me a trail that is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been afraid to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Stupidity. Fear.
So let's take a walk. I want to hear what you have got to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.
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